Monthly Archives: April 2014

Journaling 8

i don’t know what is going on.

i have been trying my best, to make sense of all this, but it makes little sense.  Should i go wait for her every morning like i did before?  But i’m a partnered man now.

whatever…  I don’t know what to do anymore.  i just did what i do best; but i’m still unfulfilled.

find an apartment?  make love to my partner?  the power of the question?  i gave sam half of my power; it was a gift.  no take backs.

2. i’m tired.

3. i got to get meatloaf tattooed on my knuckles.

4. this is for Australia: It Is Finished.

5. i feel dead, but i’m alive.  What does this mean?

6. salvation for Lucifer.

7. and satan and samael.

8. Forever.

9. Tech got me in.

9. anarchy for the win.

journaling 7

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my whole life is unraveling and spooling into a new skein.

 

I have to call the program on monday and maybe go into it.  i think i’m ready.

 

i’m giving my roommates till the twenty fifth to move out.  meanwhile i will help them find a place to live.  that’s my project for the next two weeks, along with writing.  and shopping.  i need:

1. a hat.

2. Doxiderol, 30 count.

3. tobacco.

4. copies of some of my zines.

5. repair on my typewriter.* (maybe)

i just called out favors from about 15 people… cause i’m practically broke.

got to get out and get shit done.

2 projects:

a) get shit and get shit working and done.

b) find an apartment for my two roommates and our dog.

and

c) organize my apartment

and

d) get into the program.