it’s so hard
to say goodbye
to what we had
the good times that we shared
…
it’s so hard to say goodbye to yesterday
…
this is the after life party
and if you want to party with me
just slip into some p.j.’s and bring your favorite movie
…
it’s so hard
to say goodbye
to what we had
the good times that we shared
…
it’s so hard to say goodbye to yesterday
…
this is the after life party
and if you want to party with me
just slip into some p.j.’s and bring your favorite movie
…
Poem:
Waking During The Night Of The Eclipse
Introductory Remarks
“That song is called ‘Oh shadow’”
She steps off the blanket and into the gloom
What is rarer, woven baskets, red plaster?
Here, listen, I will tell you your doom
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Image
A boon from the king of the sea
The older sibling of your past given up
From the bosom of a deep water roiling
You take them in your hands and they shrink to a figurine
Screaming in the air of the plantation
A hot fire cooking the sky as it falls
In the dusk of the highlands south of the cold
Where one’s breath is usually so humid
And one more place, this, the hall
In a mountain a gathering, a company of kings
A hidden room, full of images without life
Whose eyes you don’t usually see
But here are their eyes:
They know the world is an ocean.
They breathe air like they’re choking on fire.
And sadly and quietly they tell you they must
Draw their sword if you are to live.
Many kings, right? Is this how much you love them?
Enough to grab their arm and stay them from hell?
Enough that when they lock jaws and regard you
Your eyes bite on theirs and their faces go pale?
Or resistant and languorous; lush, hateful, hale…
Portent
Dismiss this, fair one, young one of poor hand
Once, climbing across a board of father’s make we turned from each other
And hear this, Lord Duchess wyvern, stick-brittle tree
Twice did I look upon you, and here- what I see:
1. Gathered together all fruits of your harvest
The famine comes in the form of a plague
A weathered face grows white in the moonlight
Of the lamp of cracked chalk and old age.
2. Or cloistered in holy! So there’s this, there’s this too
On the wall, mural, blood; voice of wind.
Demure you walk, hands together, you listen, you grin
As the spirit lover of your spirit teases you.
Challenge
Smoke the ash and be given: a river of truth
It is this: that our land is assailed.
One awake wakes at last. Yes this, always last…
Waking always, always… Your head rolls!
– One guess, prophetess, as to the festering mass
Of morning clouds overshadowing the moon…
– One guess, prophetess, as to the path through the dream
That you took as you slept, for you know…
That these maps to the living
They are writ knowing love
Yet you wake to the smoke
Of a death, dark above…
What is this… What is this…
I will tell you:
It is this, sister, flesh, and this I will say
And saying it once I will go on my way.
I will leave.
When you’ve woken to darkness you’ve woken to life.
When you’ve woken to day you believe.
never fight
for a girl
again,
angel.
the four sacred things are good.
and womyn are for more than children.
and means are still sad in the light of the more fair.
and i still have my destiny to attend to.
thirty more years, and then there’s that, and then…
all i want is lots of fucking Clonazapam and a few cigarettes, and some dope.
fuck the state.
showed up today but they weren’t there, so i have to go to the full moon gathering and become a werewolf.
never fight for a girl again, angel.
she’ll come to you in time.
she’ll come to you, because of your writing(s).
so stop looking and just wait for her.
please…
they want to buy us.
they want for us to work for them as slaves
until we build up enough cred
that we can work for ourselves.
fuck them.
fuck cops, fuck pigs, and fuck the police.
fuck capitalism, it has stopped working.
fuck communists who are statists.
only anarchy. only the dynasty of the poor. only the meek inherit.
the one ring will be burned.
the witch will be crowned.
the good witch will give me her honor,
as i give my brother my honor,
and as he gives his to her.
fortune favors the weak, and it favors the bold.
smoke as much weed as possible. it’s like a sedative.
just remember:
eat the snake, don’t go dealing drugs.
‘there are some things i even refuse to believe.’
ray gun.
particle ray in the fields of wheat i gasp.
‘there are so many dawns that have yet to break.’
so many.
tired.
six.
seven.
eight.
and how do you do?
and did i meet you?
and i have to get clean.
and i’m so sick of this.
tired six seven eight…
waiting for you to menstruate again.
remember and remunerate me for the times i painted my beard red;
i need another cup of coffee.
i’m so sick
of this
i’m so tired;
did i see you, that night, wandering, and crazy?
your sister…
i would wash myself in my sins to show
i would wash myself in my sins to show
i would wash myself in my sins to show
I would look over the matriarch and when you are ready send it
longer
but not that much longer
nevermind
let it be
but not that much longer
longer
cigarettes and live shows.
too many, too much, walking chained without a crutch.
met you, but now i have found
that i have two choices still, deception or ground.
love, for what it may be, is good.
hate, for what it is used for, is good as well.
and my lover is coming back; but will visit with friends.
and my life is beginning as it ends.
hello
i will grant you one
wish
goodbye
you will loan me infinite
hopes
it’s going pretty good
okay
so stop worrying about tomorrows
tired. need to write. butterflies. 21 apostles. spirit.
signed up for rehab today. have to deliver presence. presents.
tired. need to work. play. 13 chorae. the whirlwind.
looking for my wife. can’t look, cause i have to heal first.
i thought she was my best friend, but my best friend is just that.
i bought her white fucking roses.
inward sneeze. you may have emailed me that one time. cause i’m a witch.
and you’re a witch. time to be sober. for a week. but i can smoke. good.
bored. alone. crazy crazy crazy. life is life. death is death. i get both.
not everyone gets both in the same way that i do. but my mother is proud.
lonely. looking for my wife. i have to give up and just get better. i am that i am.
at least we saved the bees.