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Journaling 8

i don’t know what is going on.

i have been trying my best, to make sense of all this, but it makes little sense.  Should i go wait for her every morning like i did before?  But i’m a partnered man now.

whatever…  I don’t know what to do anymore.  i just did what i do best; but i’m still unfulfilled.

find an apartment?  make love to my partner?  the power of the question?  i gave sam half of my power; it was a gift.  no take backs.

2. i’m tired.

3. i got to get meatloaf tattooed on my knuckles.

4. this is for Australia: It Is Finished.

5. i feel dead, but i’m alive.  What does this mean?

6. salvation for Lucifer.

7. and satan and samael.

8. Forever.

9. Tech got me in.

9. anarchy for the win.

butterflies

tired. need to write. butterflies. 21 apostles. spirit.

signed up for rehab today. have to deliver presence. presents.

tired. need to work. play. 13 chorae. the whirlwind.

looking for my wife. can’t look, cause i have to heal first.
i thought she was my best friend, but my best friend is just that.
i bought her white fucking roses.

inward sneeze. you may have emailed me that one time. cause i’m a witch.
and you’re a witch. time to be sober. for a week. but i can smoke. good.

bored. alone. crazy crazy crazy. life is life. death is death. i get both.
not everyone gets both in the same way that i do. but my mother is proud.

lonely. looking for my wife. i have to give up and just get better. i am that i am.
at least we saved the bees.